It comes to this.
This year I will learn to be comfortable with failure.
Let me explain, I don't like failing at things, AT ALL if I do it, it must mean something awful and I don't want to be looked at as awful. So I am always trying to be perfect at everything and most of the time failing which causes me to go into a tail spin of craziness. Yes, therapy is in order I know.
After having a melt down this last week my husband simply told me that you have to fail alot in this life and the important thing is to get back up and keep going. At the end of this life we will be refined if we can keep going through all the trial and hardships and not give up. So I told him that I wasn't comfortable at failing, its to hard to face. He smiled and then laughed, "Oh I am really comfortable at failing. I do it all the time."
I'm sort of envious of him and want to kick him when he says stuff like that. But this is why we are married because he is good at all the things I horrible at and vice verse. So there you have it dad, I will learn to fail and do it gracefully and let this "refining" process begin and not fight it any longer. I will pick/scrap my sorry face off the ground and start anew knowing that I can learn something from the failure. There will I am sure be more melt downs because hey lets face it I'm not perfect but here is to a new year where I won't let that small fact drive me crazy any more.
Now on to a half birthday! Garrett is 2 and half today, what?! How on earth did that happen? Today while organizing all of their clothes into bins I realized he is almost 3 years old! Wow time is flying by so fast, he is so big. He has to be the funniest little guy I know. Always dancing and as he says, "I shake my boooty!" quoting movies, and loves his green veggies. Amazing that he loves broccoli, green beans, and peas.
So happy he is a part of our family!!!
4 comments:
I think it's ok with being ok to fail as long as you tried your absolute best!
Happy half b-day! I can't believe that they are almost 3. seriously?!?!
Happy half birthday Garrett. I just so clearly remember the scary time we went through when he was a new born and am so grateful for that healthy little guy! Hang in there with your resolution. It's only a failure if we don't learn the lesson they are trying to teach. Love you!
Just what your sister and mom say Dana. Hang in there with your resolution. Your good mom and dad have a LOT to be proud of in you as a daughter - and Brad in you as a wife, and those boys - well they're perfect for you and you're perfect for them! Grandpa B talks all the time about the "local conditions" which I think means this time and place on earth for us to fail and practice doing the best we can and learn the lessons failure teaches us. Isn't the struggle so hard sometimes? And yeah, how CAN your boys be growing up so fast? They're little men - where are our babies? Love you sweetheart and have a great day. :)
I read your post with great interest and realized that after 54years of living I,too, am not comfortable with failure. That discomfort has kept me from trying a lot of things i.e. going back to school and finishing my degree, trying out for the Tabernacle Choir (yes, I'd considered it in the past), and a few other things.I live with this unsettled feeling that I'm always on the verge of letting someone down. Good for you that you're facing this down, now! Perfection in this life is an illusion . . . more power to you in 2011, Dana. And BTW, I think you're a remarkable young woman . . . the nice thing is that you can be remarkable without being perfect! Love, Sandra
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